This Is Me

This Is Me
I may never amount to much
in this life I live
I may never be successful
or wealthy enough to give
I have made countless mistakes
and many bad decisions
I have seen dreams so big
that only I could envision
I have crawled paths
that others would not walk
I have tasted so much blood
I could not talk
I do not ask for comfort
or even a helping hand
I just want you to know
that this is who I am
-CLL

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

Live Forever

Live Forever
Shine your light everyday
as if it were your last
Hold tightly to the little moments of the present
for soon it will be the past
Lend a hand or even a word
to a stranger or friend that needs love
Be caring and compassionate towards people
and not to seek reward from up above
Stand up for yourself and all your friends
Open your heart and mind unconditionally
so there is no beginning and end
Be recognized as someone who was brave
and fought with all they could
Last, be remembered for all that you did
and not for which you should

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

The Loser

The Loser
That one person
you shamefully cast away
Same person you forget about
when you pray
No one has nothing good
to say about him
His light is steadily fading
from shallow to dim
The night air seems to burn
his lungs a bit more
All of his life is exposed
like a house without a door
All the people speak down to him
but nobody will share his pain
The loser awakes everyday
fighting not just for air
but hoping to make
one ounce of gain

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

Taken

Taken
They have all taken
Taken the best of me
Everyone ran out
When I forgot who to be
Please do not let me suffer
Suffer here in the streets
Drag my body to shelter
Let me die at your feet
I have felt the coldness
Coldness of my critics eyes
My heart fights on forever
As my soul slowly dies

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

One Last Fight

One Last Fight
It must be a scary feeling
you watch the light leave the room
it retreats behind the door
People saying you don't have
what it takes anymore
Your heart swells with pain
there is nothing left to prove
nothing else to gain
You have risen from the depths
higher than any star
You traveled the world
from near to far
You realize nothing will comfort
a warriors hurt
but only testing his soul
You would trade away all your glory
for one last blind run
by a fighting legend
For being on top again
and achieving the ultimate goal

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

Becoming

Becoming
Many a men search around
for direction and solitude
The markers used in life
were placed there by men
with courageous attitudes
Timid souls that are scared
seek for comfort
when pursuing towards
a difficult quest
A leaders footprints
are those of lonely steps
seldom followed by anyone else
Our paths may lead to many ends
but it is in those journeys
that we find our truest friends
Honorable men travel
the most challenging roads
Heroes are torn
from legendary cloth
that does not fit
any other molds

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Scars

Scars
I cannot find you
Did you find someone new
You left me to die slow
We lost the fire that used to glow
My heart is callused by the scars
I followed your light from an empty star
I did not realize you had left
Until my heart was stolen by your theft
Now I must take my loss and learn
Sometimes it is better to be buried than burned

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

Let Me Go

Let Me Go
My heart said so
We collected only scars
prisoned by loves bars
My soul bleeds into me
My feelings became my enemy
The path led us wrong
The pain lasted far too long
Please let me go
My hurt continues to grow
We reached our plateau
many heartaches ago
Victims of love
are the last to know

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

Captivation

Captivation
I sit here and wait
I know eventually you will return
I thinks it is captivation with you
People only feel it with some
What is the connection here
The one between you and I
I filled your heart with pain
I often make you cry
You always come back to me
I will never understand why
It must be captivation with you

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

So Long Friend

So long Friend
I stare up at the night sky
hoping to see your face
Every since your journey home
all the stars seem right in place
Often I will call out for your hand
for when I may stumble and fall
you will be there to help me stand
The angels gathered over you
and gently opened their wings
Safely they tucked you in
until we meet at the roads end
It is never goodbye with you
But only so long my friend

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

Life

Life
The circle of life goes around fully
and appears to be unforgiving
There are people who fear death
who will never start living
Be one, and be yourself,
and never compromise with regret
Live life as if you were gambling
and make a once in a lifetime bet
All the brave heroes look down
from the heavens above
and give you special praise
Be proud of your scars
and share them like a book
documenting all your days

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

Hurt

Hurt
I lie to everyone
with the fake smile I wear
and I wear it well.
All of my hurt and pain
leaks into the river
and makes it swell.
At night, I call out to my maker
to take what is left of me.
No one will listen
as I continue to bleed out
the person I used to be.
I dodge anything
that will get attached
and be weakend with my kind.
My light is burning out
and the city I live in
is becoming hard to find.
I have to finish off
this final image
of the monster I have created.
In the end
we all feel damaged
and some of us
will parish as the hated.

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane

Steps

Steps
Steps of life always lie ahead
regardless of your destination.
They wait for you constantly
redefining all your limitations.
From the bottom up
the vision will sometimes seem too much.
Each step closer
will make your dreams close enough to touch.
Everyone will help you down
but no one will help you to the top.
As you cross the final step
you will feel the weight let go and drop.

Copyright ©2009 Christopher Lynn Lane